Ok, aside from that, my work has become hectic… I believe that I will be dead like my friends soon. You know, it’s not so easy to learn a new thing, by yourself, and especially I can get demotivated easily. Anyhow, I just wish that I can contribute… I don’t want to switch another job again, as this job seems interesting, quite fit on what I wanted too.

Went to shopping yesterday. I wish to buy some clothes, but since I’m fat now… No clothes, except a cardigan (yea, something like that). What more, I bought a pair of flat shoes and a bag (yay for fully fabrics bag). I hate to use leather bag. I got a leather bag, but I just hate to use it anyway. Believe it or not, I have more what-you-called schoolbag than those pretty handbag. Only 1 leather bag, and now I got a nice fabric bag. Cool. Not to mention that they are cheap because they cost only RM 55 in total, yes, all three stuffs. Hehehe… Pictures later. Wait for next time LOL.

Btw, anyone has instagram? WhatsApp? Please let me know if you have.

Ending this post by shouting: DIET!

Korean food, damn nice. ♥

Of course, it’s still expensive. Now, I’m craving for sashimi. Well, I should start my diet already… TvT

One week passed in new company. I really hope that I can do well. I hope I can learn faster. Damn.

I miss my family and home, definitely. I have moved out from my house, stayed with friend. I’ve been driving to work too, and get back from work at time. How nice that I don’t have to work overtime like my previous work. Phew.

Diet. Why are you so difficult to achieve? I can’t skip lunch or have a light meal because my colleagues will drag me out to eat. If I reject their offer, I will feel damn sorry to them. How to diet in this situation? *cries in a dark corner*

Another Monday is approaching. God, please lead me. *prays*

They gave me gifts.

Those gifts were adorable. I put the bears in my car. Actually, those gifts made me felt guilty after I left them. I miss them.

I hope, another good day is there for me. Please lead my way, God.

I will have another new life soon. Moving out from house, to stay with my friend. Quitting current job as a tester. Be a programmer. I’m not sure whether I can do it or not, if I can’t make it, this time, I will give up.

I seriously, need to have my own space to breathe, to rest.

I feel sorry to everyone.

I want to cry.

Today, I had my first class with college students. Huhuhu, it wasn’t bad. Just I need to get ready and prepare myself for every question… I’m still fine in one piece. I enjoy driving alone to work too, and there’s so so so much freedom in my job. I feel so relax. I hate to remember all the sad moments happened in my neighbourhood. Frankly speaking, when I’m out there, driving car alone, I feel good. Plus, I can earn money. Shh… Tee-hee. I like that. I like my time being alone.

How was your Valentine’s Day? I did nothing that day other than working. Hahaha! A fun thing (?) happened when I took train back from work. It totally surprised me. There were some people holding boards and “Say no to Valentine’s Day” was written there. I never saw that kind of things before, so it was completely fresh to me.

Man, I’m so sleepy!

Yes, there are many things bother me too… For now, I want to forget them all.

I bought magnetic nail polish when I was in UK.

I can’t paint it nicely, sorry! .___. Anyway, it’s still amazing. Hehehe… That’s bad that I can’t do it to my right hand… Oh, I bought cracked style nail polish too. Hehehe, I’ll show you next time.

I’ll try my best to update my blogs. I really really got lots of things that haven’t been posted here, hahaha!

Speaking of photos… I admired one of my friends. I… Look like a stalker who stalks her photos now. Damn. I like the photos that she took. Creative and artistic people are always awesome. Why can’t I be creative? ;w;

Drive to the places I want, be independent. Fight back those who look down at me.

I want to be a girl who everyone will feel comfortable with me. Be your good daughter, girlfriend, friend and best friend.

I wish for a better life. I don’t want anyone to hurt my family. God, please send them away. I beg you.

Another thing is, my family will soon be in troubles. My neighbours are being selfish, they purposely move to other places and renovate old houses so that we cannot park our car there. They had a fight with us last year, in the end, they lost due to their rudeness and selfishness. Since they are rich, now they want to get us into troubles again. It worries me. I hate those rich men. I want to protect my family. I want to move, but I have no money. I’m really exhausted. I want to cry. I’m not strong.

Today is our one year anniversary. I screwed up with him. Good thing. I’m really not good in handling relationship. I can’t trust beautiful sentences. You asked me to share with you, but does it help? It won’t help! I just wish to escape from here.

Another thing is, I’m busy playing Digimon World DS. This could actually make me happier. How amazing.

I’m going for another interview tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Sorry for lack of update and pictures. Uhm, I guess no one is reading my blog yea? It’s too negative… Sorry for the negative posts… *sighs*

When you step into working life, you will realise that you have to improve yourself in everything. I hate that I cried in front of my manager. Shit.

I also hate to deal with people who has princess attitude. I even need to face her everyday. Listen, I’m not an expert. We joined this company together, you know something that I don’t but you still want to ask me. What the hell?

For today’s interview, I screwed up everything. Damn. What do I want?